New(?) news. A day of reflection.

Yes, it’s December 28th and we still have Christmas decor’ around, as our son was traveling here today.  🙂  So grateful to see him arrive safely!
It seems a lifetime since this morning.  Isn’t it interesting how that can happen?  I woke today, with “He’s a good, good Father…” playing in my thoughts.  The song echoed in my thoughts on repeat, for most of this day.  This was intentional, as I knew since Roy and I had been called in, we would hear the test results  of the latest MRIs, today.  Hints of those results over the past little bit had been quietly tucked away, hoping they were not an indication of the truth.  But…they were exactly that.
If you know me well, you know I’ve been pretty quiet since what we thought was perhaps a mini-stroke in October.  Over the past weeks, we’ve had a number of MRIs, lab work, and continuing symptoms.  The possibility of the results has been forcing me to consider what the future holds.  Another song has been on my heart, lately.  “I don’t know about tomorrow, I just live from day to day–followed by–many things about tomorrow, I don’t seem to understand…but I know Who holds tomorrow-and I know, Who holds my hand.”  What did the Dr.s visit hold?
Today I was officially diagnosed with MS.
The next step is deciding on the best course of medication from the list we were given.  All have “scary” side effects.  None are guaranteed, as everyone’s symptoms are different.
There is no cure.
I can’t really wrap my head around those words, yet.  That sounds so antiquated to me.  Like trains.  Haven’t we progressed as a civilization since trains came on the scene?  Yet, we still see them-hear them-and know they are a part of our world.
It may be that I’m a little in shock at this morning’s news.  We had a feeling, but tried not to dwell, or focus on the possibility.   I didn’t plan to make a big announcement about today, but for you who follow my blog, or my Facebook…I wanted to let you in on what’s “new.”  You mean a lot to me, and I don’t want to keep you in the dark.  We would appreciate your prayers as we begin this new portion of our journey.  Roy and the guys are amazing, and have been helping in so many ways already.  I’m extremely grateful for them.  God has been undeniably good to me-and to us all!  Please don’t worry, y’all.  It’s actually possible I’ve had this for a while, and attributed several things to severe Fibromyalgia over the years, when in reality-it may have been the MS all along.  It has progressed slowly so far, for which I’m thankful.   In any case, there is no question about it, now.  The scans are clear, the symptoms and the diagnosis, both definite.  That said, I don’t know what the future holds exactly, but of one thing I am certain, and wanted to go “on record” saying today:  “He’s a good, good Father.”  <3
Plus-sized faith today,  Donnarae