Has your mind ever played games with you? Toyed with your emotions? Sent you on a journey that seemed to lead you back to start? Again and again?
Guess what, y’all! We can play games with our mind, too! We can tell our brain a thing so many times that we begin to think that thing is true-whether or not it was truth when we first said it. And, we begin to act on the thoughts we think, as they produce emotions. The more emotion we put behind something, the more we attract the same. What a powerful thing we hold. Life-changing, future-creating, destiny-determining power. At our fingertips! Let’s put some emotion behind that!
Words also mean something. The power of life and death are in the tongue. Speak life are two extremely moving words. I see growing, climbing, lush green vines-winding around a beautiful garden gate, and blooming with vibrant flowers…there are bees, and butterflies, cotton-white clouds floating lazily past, in a beautiful blue sky. I see life. I get to decide what color the flowers are. How tall the gate is. If there are birds splashing in a cobalt blue birdbath nearby. All my decisions. All my thoughts. All in my mind.
We can create whatever we want, y’all. I know it sounds foreign, and a little “out there”-but meditating on what we want, or what we love- activates our words. And emotions. And actions. Think on a thing long enough, and you become emotional about it. Which causes you to do something. Which causes that thing to happen.
Thoughts become things.
What you focus on, expands.
On what are you focusing? There are things we cannot change. Things that are part of who we are. But…there are also things we can change. We can always change our attitude. Our outlook on life. Whether we react or respond to a thing. If we can’t change the thing, we can change how we feel about it.
Why have my thoughts been scrambled? Three days after Christmas we received life-altering news. For over six weeks now, that news has infiltrated every part of who I am. It affects how I walk. How I talk. How I show up in the world. How I see myself. How I see others. And, how I feel others see me.
It has changed everything. Taken my sure steps, and made them unbalanced. Taken my quick words, and given me stammering, broken pauses-at random times. Taken my dreams and goals, and forced me to rethink them. Most importantly, it has taken my ability to bounce back with a smile. I am uncertain how to move forward, and that has taken it’s toll in six short weeks.
And…that’s long enough. Yes, things are different now. Would I have chosen this path? Of course not, but I fully trust God makes no mistakes, and this new journey is a very special gift that’s been entrusted to me. What I do with it is my choice.
I choose to use it. I choose to think on things that are lovely, and of a good report. I choose to see and show the good side of a journey unexpected. How one can bounce back and yes, still smile. I choose to update you along the way, in this Winning the MS-Mind Game addition to Plus-Sized Faith. Thank you for being patient as I get my bearings. As I find my balance. As He hones my character, and continues to grow my faith.
Honestly I am nervous about the upcoming medicine, and the reported side-effects. I am nervous about the next flare up and how far apart mine will be. I am nervous about the symptoms already here, and how they seem here to stay.
But, I am fully confident that through it all He’s a good, GOOD Father. I look forward to seeing how He steps in, and helps me live full out…not hiding out. Welcome to the MS mess. The mind game addition. The real me. With MS…and faith. Plus-sized. <3
Plus-sized faith today-
The “Winning the MS-Mind Game” addition, edition,
Donnarae
